jasmin has a proper conversation

more than once.

that's progress right there. they wanted me to improve socially didn't they. silly appraisals. it's all the more stupid when they give you that little disclaimer right before they start off the crap claiming that 'this is all just procedure. i repeat, only a procedure.'

talking to rob is fun. he bitches with the arrogance of a pompous blueblood. which is hilarious, really. i don't think everyone else finds that amusing though. talking to k. is also fun. but that's only because i've shocked him more than once with the things he finds out i do. which really are just typically boring jasmin shit. talking to the girls [well, some of them] is fun too. they tell you some strangest gossip even when you dont' want to know. talking to mikey is hilarious. everything's a joke and after a while i'm not sure what's serious and what's not anymore. talking to h.'s fun too. he tells you things you never thought of and he has the cutest lisp. so you see, i DO socialise. just because i don't do it often doesn't mean i need to be walking around and talking to everyone during work.

now this one dude i don't get. we talk fine when we're alone, but when there are other people around, we just clam up. honest to goodness. we can be at the table for a whole damn hour with a bunch of colleagues and not utter a single word to each other. but when we're hanging out alone, we'd be bantering off like there's no tomorrow. [ok, that's a little bit exaggerated] if that's not fucked up i don't know what that is. what. is. up. with. that.???! what? is it me? is it because i clam up in front of others, so you do too? or was it a mutual thing? or is it just the language thing? rather tempted to ask... albeit nonchalantly over a cigarette one day... which i don't smoke... maybe i'd find out things i need to know. yeah... maybe...
for example, we had supper with three other colleagues and throughout the entire hour, we didn't say a word to each other but oh yeah, we spoke to everyone else. during one of the breaks, we were outside and we had a perfectly normal conversation. and in the car after work, another perfectly normal conversation. what the hell? i'll just conclude this as a 'it's just me' situation for now.