back in those days....

since the past few hours have been somewhat shitty, let's just focus on the simple and nice things that people tend to overlook in such pessimistic situations.

1. i found a long lost primary school classmate on friendster. joy! [uhm.. no that's not his name. i was just merely expressing my excitement nonverbally.] who am i kidding? this isn't just any primary school classmate. i used to have the biggest crush on this guy for the longest time. doubt he ever even liked me as a friend though. i think he merely tolerated my existence. lol but it's good to have stumbled upon his account on friendster.

2. [trying really hard to think of something nice that has happened but all i can think of is how i'm going to be missing a birthday party tonight because i'll be stuck at work with a bunch of morons and three quarter who'd most probably work the rest of their lives in that godforsaken pieceofshit place called 'office' doing the same damn fucking thing everyday] oh yeah... i get the weekend off... which reminds me that said morons somehow fucked things up with systems and policies and i end up NOT having a long break for chinese new year which is what left me in such a shitty mood for the past few hours of my otherwise placid and mildly exciting day.

moving along...

3. i have pretty much given up trying to figure things out. they get stranger by the day, but hey, somehow, that's how things end up in my life. i accept things as they are because that's how they're meant to be. OMMMM....

at the rate i was taking deep breaths and chanting mental 'om's, i would have floated up and bopped about the ceiling if i didn't exhale. one of those many times where time oozes on like a big fat python that just swallowed a capybara and you are one step away from climbing onto the table and flailing arms about madly while screaming your guts out about how everyone is a moron and is going to die then flip everyone off before walking out of the office and driving home at 160kilometers per hour. or just take lots of deep breaths and mentally chant 'om'.

4. at least he still knows i exist, which i suppose is a rather uncomfortable situation for us.

5. sucky day has given me new inspiration and need to hunt for a new job/ graduate school/ rich single men. most ly the first two though. i need mental stimulation.

6. mused over the fact that i could feel myself lose a few hundred thousand braincells just sitting there staring at the tv screen. also felt that if i had let myself, i would have drooled like a lobotomy patient also.

realised one thing though. when you feel such a strong urge to create something but are not able to because of one thing or another, you end up feeling an urge to destroy things.